Home Alone: Day Five

It's Friday!

Somehow, the fact that it's Friday didn't seem like such a big deal when I came home to an empty house. The dogs were ecstatic to see me, but, as anyone who has dogs can tell you - they are always ecstatic to see you return; whether you've been gone 20 seconds or 20 years. Same reaction every time.

Upon arriving home, I was immediately hit with overwhelming indecision. These are merely a portion of the thoughts that ran through my head like a horny speed-dater:

Should I treat myself and eat out or cook something healthy? Should I try to get my son's work permit or wait until he gets back and make him do it himself? Return a couple phone calls or wait until tomorrow? Go pick up books at the library or get a movie? Cruise the Internet or read a book? Eat dinner early or wait till later? Start laundry or weed the raspberries?

Aaaarrrrggghhh!!!

Being alone made the possibilities too numerous to mention. Without having my path narrowly defined by the ever changing needs and wants of others, I was unable to establish any true direction at all.

I guess that I've discovered that, when left alone, I currently have great difficulty charting a clear course for myself and sticking to it. I wonder if that will change as my children grow up and I gather the time back gradually instead of all at once?

Regardless of my new-found introspection, I must admit that I enjoyed this week. I enjoyed the way the house stayed clean. I enjoyed the peace and quiet. I enjoyed being able to follow my own quiet thoughts, wherever they led me.

But being alone sure gets lonely! Hurry home, guys!